O my god people…… I have lost my shit, big time. I feel more tired now than I did with a new born. I am not sure what is wrong with me, surely I can’t be pregnant….. someone will be getting sued if I am….but I am not, so back to my point – I am tired.
Last week I thought it would be a good idea to get rid of Clancy’s dummies. He was hooked on them, carted them around everywhere and I was just about sick of those dirty little things. We were constantly looking for lost dummies, he only had 2 left – a green one and a blue one. If he didn’t have both to go to bed with it was on for young and old: “I want my green dummy” or “I want my blue dummy”. I thought it was time we got rid of them. So do you know what I did? I cut a hole in the blue dummy and gave it to him. I said “O no, look your dummy has worn out, it has a hole in it, we better throw it out”. And he did, I was gobsmacked. I couldn’t believe it. He didn’t even get upset, he just threw it in the bin and said a little goodbye.
Great, I thought. That is it then. But no, the next day he knew that his green dummy was still in existence somewhere. I spotted it, pocketed it and cut a hole in that one too. Then I let him find it (Ooooooo, aren’t I just so mean). And so that dummy went into the bin too. Gone, great. Lets get on with things.
Or lets not….. this great dummy ditching exercise has now left me with a 3 year old who has not only given up his dummies, but has also ditched his daytime sleep.
Oh give me strength. I am not ready for this. That daytime sleep was my “lets get in and get things done” time. And now it has gone. Although as I type this I have actually managed to get him to sleep today. It involved tantrums, crying and me lying down and having a little sleep with him. It involved 27 hush-a-bye’s and I can’t even tell you how many times he asked for a glass of milk.
And look at him, so darned cute. Butter wouldn’t melt in his mouth
So there you have it. I am in the deep dark depths of toddler hell with no daytime sleep. I know – first world problem, right? But it is my first world problem, and I am just not ready to part with that sleep yet. And it gets worse when I remind myself that he doesn’t start school until 2017 – that is over 2 years away….how the hell do I do another 2 years???? I am telling you, it is lucky he is so bloody cute (and despite how tired and cranky I may appear, he really isn’t that much trouble – I just needed a rant).
I know in the scheme of things this isn’t a huge problem, but when you are tired and have that constant nagging from a 3 year old you really do look forward to that daytime sleep. Am I right? I just can’t seem to be able to motivate myself at the moment. Is it because the year has just flown by so fast? Is it because it is nearly the end of the year? I am done.
Remind me of this during the wet season when I am trapped here on the station with no friends and it may be a different story, but right now I don’t have much more in me. This little extrovert is very quickly becoming an introvert.
How are you fairing at this time of the year? Are you spent? Are you feeling a lack of motivation also? What on earth can we do to pep ourselves up? Shall I go and crack open a can of coke? Please tell me I am not the only tired and un-motivated lazy Mum getting around at the moment.